WILL I RECOVER?

YES I CAN!

Mobile Phone

It's always been a good thing to have one...

BUT

at times it can be quite bothersome...

For my case, I should know better.

When it rings, I'm all smiles...
When it doesn't, I'm all tense up for nothing...

It's really a psychological torture...argghhhh

WHEN WILL I EVER LEARN?

When will I learn...

It still bugs me no matter what...

So what should I do?

I'm trying to VERY hard now to curb the feeling. It's a difficult process but I have to do it no matter what...

Occupying my mind to temporary forget about it is the only way. What other ways? Can someone please HELP?

I really don't understand...

I can't read minds, but at least give an indication...

I can't be guessing all the time...

I can't be assuming all the time...

It's really a daunting thing to keep doing this...

My plan has started...

I've already started my so call master plan. I will be keeping to my words and continue what I did today.

Even though it was hard but I guess I have to bite the bullet and stay on with my plan and succeed, no matter what.

My blog tells it all...

I'm slowly MELting away...when will I ever freeze up again?

Like a fool...

I feel like a fool...

DON'T MEAN ANYTHING AT ALL

I think I don't mean anything to you...

John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking *shit* again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.

John Mayer - Friends, Lovers Or Nothing

Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive

Only when we want is not
A compromise
I'll be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be the in-between
So give it up

You whisper, "Come on over"
Because you're two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same

Friends, lovers, or nothing
You see, there can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never an in-between
So give it up

Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
Don't you know
We'll never be the in-between
So give it up

No, we'll never the in-between
So give it up

Anything other than yes is no
Anything other than stay is go
Anything less than I love you is lying

I'M A UNIQUE INDIVIDUAL!

THAT'S ME!

FIRST UP!

Lose all the weight I gained!

CHANGE! I HAVE A PLAN!

From this day onwards, I will CHANGE.

I will let those who don't even appreciate a single bit of me regret what they have done to me...

CHANGE MY ATTITUDE!
CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE!
CHANGE MY BEHAVIOUR!
CHANGE MY PERSPECTIVE!

MY LIFE WILL GO ON TO THE FULLEST!

THIS WILL BE MY PLAN! THE ULTIMATE MASTER PLAN!

This is what I am feeling now...

miserable.pain.foolish.unappreciated.

Why am I always at the losing end? Are my qualities that bad? Is it because I'm not that dashing enough? Don't have the looks? Fat?

I keep asking these questions over and over again, BUT can't seems to find an answer to any.

I just don't understand. You can say I'm a sore loser but I don't admit defeat. What have I done wrong? Will I commit the same mistake I did before? I have a feeling it will be...

Just got a Whatsapp message from DD, he say LIFE GOES ON. Strike me to the core! Think I should just move on and live life as it is...

After sooo looonnnggg

I'm back to blog!

It's been awhile but it seems like this is the best place to rant out my thoughts!